Glacius' posts with tag: verse
Mood: Hungry
Listening To: Vitamin C - Graduation
Eternal Sleep
Awake me from my current condition,
From all my dream transitions.
Scarred heart; yet it doesn't bleed.
I am tearful; but I can't weep.
Awake me from my deep sleep,
Poisoned till I faint; falling in - deep.
The morning scent; brings me cancer.
Smoke and haze; blended well, makes Death better.
Awake me from my surroundings,
Let the light shine through the place I'm confounded in.
Fire or ice; they seem the same.
Burn or freeze; still, Death gains.
Awake me from my darkness,
Concealing me from this lifeless bliss.
Constricted within; save me.
Tortured within; Death, save me.
Stand beside me, and tell me what's wrong.
Why we entered a position we don't belong?
The tears we've sheded, all the love that's scattered,
The pieces of our hearts, broken, shattered and tattered.
We need to learn, how the human hearts are owned.
I need to learn, why my feelings are still proned?
To harmness, seeing you with another guy,
Having sleepless nights, always asking myself why.
And I try and have tried, but these tears still flow.
When it's you and me, unbelievably, I still mourn.
The truth has never been known, and now I stand alone.
Like a kingdom conquered, and its king, dethroned.
Banished from love, because it's my own fate,
because it's adding to my burden, unbelievable weight.
Now it's time, I got scarred, because I deserved it,
Love is blind, and it's something you can not predict.
Mood: InspiredListening To: The PC fan
Well,
this is something I wrote out after 3 hours of sleep. I don't know why,
but I'm perfectly fine. I've got troubles sleeping last night, and I've
got troubles staying asleep too. wtf? Anyways, here's a piece on that
FDM Love Album that WoRmY and Schiz had in mind.. I could do a song
based on this myself.. But I've got no drum beats..Things That Never Went Right.
Despite the times I've tried, this made me wonder why,
The things I've done wrong, though there's no tear in my eye.
Not to say, I didn't love her, for who she was,
Just that I never saw this coming because there was no cause.
For me to be shocked, to lose my very loved one,
Never knowing that it ended, when I thought it just begun.
As it is the new year, for this couple, which is "us",
Nothing lasts forever, and this feels like a contracted curse.
I can't understand why, I'm not feeling depressed,
For losing this girl in my heart, who was the best.
Well, at least to me, though there were hatred from people,
From guys and girls, when our relationship unfold.
At least all this didn't end in an accident,
Where nobody was killed and where death wasn't a present.
Because that's the worst way, to lose someone you truly love,
Taken away from you, a future vision - blurred.
... But I never regret, for losing this sweet girl,
Because her honesty in friendship, is the best thing in this world.
And everything she said out with a truthful heart,
And no, from the start, she never tore my heart apart.
Even if she did, she would do it without knowing,
I know her, I loved her and I'm being understanding.
And what is done is said, and what is said is done,
And I can never stop a breakup when it has begun.
With reasons spun, and it's all over the place,
Now knowing love was a game I could never have aced.
It was a clean game, none of us were cheaters,
All playing by the rules, and nobody was the winner.
As long as people are happy, that's all that matters,
And I'll continue walking, even there's a dark weather.
And even if I fall, I'll get up with all of my might,
'Cause this is one of those things, that never went right.
Wrote up 2 verses in just half an hour.. Inspirations are just wonders I can never capture and bottle it up.
Mood: Blank?
Listening To: Light & Easy
After I dropped my mum off at the airport yesterday, the song played
was FDM - Happy Mother's Day.. And you can say that I was a little
bit... inspired..?...
Yet, I have written so much about my mum, and you all would know that I
hate her till I would kill her myself, one day. I was rather
happy not being featured in FDM's Happy Mother's Day.. And also, I was
in NS. But, maybe things can be given a 2nd chance... if she's not that naggy, of course.
*ahem*..
After 18 years; all I ever did was just to curse her to death.
Always forgetting who fed me milk painfully through her breast.
And took care of me, when I was still young and naive,
And a brother I can never ask for, who's Jean Yves.
She sacrificed so much, just for this family,
And without her, I wouldn't even be the whole me.
She's irritating, but she has the kindest heart,
It's a lot better than having none right from the start.
I've been rebellious, ever since she threw her temper,
At the wrong child, sometimes not being so pleasant.
Sometimes, I wish that I wouldn't cause all this treason,
As the black sheep of the family, always with doubted reasons.
Never knowing, what's really right for me,
When she brings the whole world right in front of me.
I can't believe I've been the worst child as I've walked this way,
I hope it's not too late to wish her Happy Mother's Day
And I still believe that I can't write, by the way.. i'm not really satisfied with this piece... IF it's even a piece.. Lol
You never fail, to put that smile on my face,
Forgetting things, and most of my bad memories erased.
Those eyes of yours, that sweet smile you own,
Loving you like Kings and Queens would, off their thrones.
Those lips of yours, which I'll never ever trade,
Cos your kisses are something that nobody could imitate.
Some had tried to hate, cos being with me makes you happy,
But I wouldn't care because I've always wanted you with me.
Every time you walk with me, you make my heart skip a beat,
Unintentionally, like how I love you, naturally.
I could never explain, how I feel about you,
As long as you know, and everything I say is true.
They say, dreams come true, and I believe in you,
'Cause this love made our hearts one, and not into two.
Never down and blue, because I have the whole you,
Let them hate us, every time, I say I love you.
Missin' you in my heart, you are the one..
... And you always will be..
Empty
These thoughts, can never explain me,
I never knew I that I never changed.
Although, I always thought I already did,
But this beast, can never be tamed.
Acting matured, but always immatured,
Thinking that everything can be controlled.
Now I doubt myself, in whatever I say,
because I see no changes, when I walk on any way.
These fingers, they provide entertainment,
To me, they bring happiness.
Unintentionally, they bring fame,
Or rather, a guitarist, who's lame.
Not favoured by many, liked by some,
I don't give a shit, because I am one.
Confused, and stuck in a neverending maze,
If this goes on, I would just lay dead and insane.
Sometimes, I wish
I wasn't the person I am right now. I don't even like myself as
I'm typing all this out. Even if I want to change, who do I want
to be? What do I really want in life? Why is all this
happening to me? I just can't control myself like I used to,
anymore. I thought I changed, but I just proved myself that I'm
100% fucking wrong last night. I realised that whatever I try to
say or do.. would be wrong. Maybe after all this while, my mother
and her bitchyness would be the on the right side, and I would be too
stubborn to give into her.
What could get worse..?
That right now..
... Everything I do.. Is just wrong..
Mood: ......
Listening To: Pure demonic silence..
The piercing pain,
The darkest rain,
The runaway trains,
Our memories, unchained.
The darkest days,
The unforseen ways,
The deaths, he craves,
They call him insane.
The mask of sanity,
Will break, eventually,
When his blood flows freely,
And tears supportingly.
This piercing pain,
Keeps the beast; tamed,
If he dies unvain'd,
Then nobody knows the tale.
Mood: Pissed. 3 months and I lost EVERYTHING in this fucked up laptop.
Listening To: .......
Cover my ears, bury me deep,
So I shan't hear thy silent weep.
Close my eyes, bury me deep,
So I shall have my eternal sleep.
Cover my mouth, bury me deep,
So thou shan't hear the truth I speak.
Close my mind, bury me deep,
So no one shall figure the thoughts I think.
Drain my blood, bury me deep,
So I shan't be the son or love that everone speaks.
Stab my heart, bury me deep,
So nobody sees me, as I slowly bleed..
Mood: ......
Listening To: Metallica - The Unforgiven II
Death's Bed
Needles and spikes,
My death; devine.
Anger and hatred,
Begone, the wicked.
I am laid,
on Death's bed.
Claimed to threat,
Eternal rest.
I am laid,
on Death's bed.
Nothing changed,
Torn in pain.
I am laid,
on Death's bed.
Of anger and hatred,
My patience; depleted.
I am laid,
on Death's bed.
I dare to whisper;
for a saving prayer.
It's funny how
things never change in this family with my absence. People tell me, my
family loves me. But what I get, is disrespect once I step into the
house; with words of doubt and anger.
Mood: Emo-ed..
Listening To: Metallica - The Unforgiven II
Tell me,
what do I need to do,
just to have you in my arms again?
Tell me,
what do I need to say,
just to make you feel what you used to?
Tell me,
what has the distance limited us,
as I'm not able to listen to you every night like I used to.
Tell me,
what do I need to do,
to make everything like how it used to?
Tell me,
what do I need to do,
just to make you know that I love you.
Tell me,
how can I tell you
that I love you, before I sleep every night.
Tell me,
that you still hold onto my heart,
as nobody else has the chance to hold it.
Tell me,
that your heart is still in my hands,
as I can never crush it.
Tell me,
that you've meant everything you've said before,
and never changed anything until today.
Tell me,
is this distance going to destroy our love?
Because it's not going to destroy mine, for you.
Tell me,
that you'll keep all of your promises,
because I'm going to keep mine.
Tell me,
that you love me,
because I do love you.
I don't know how else I'm supposed to spit everything out.. but I'm feeling a lot of feelings right now..
I don't know how to let Vanesa know that I love her so much.. because I really do.. I don't wanna hide it anymore....
Baby... if you're reading this..... please do remember that before I
sleep every night, I pray to God; asking for His help to pass a simple
message to you. Is that I love you. Every night, every day,
every minute; as long as I breathe.
Though I'm in National Service, my love for you has never changed.. I
mean whatever I say.. and please.. be strong.. it's hard, but I still
can keep up with all this.. because I love you so so much...
And I'm always trying to patch things up between us.. If I didn't love
you as much as I do... Both of us would've lost each other... But I
don't want to lose you because I just love you so much..
I love you.........
Mood: Tired
Listening To: BSB - Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely
I kinda wrote all these while I was in the dorm or when I was in some
introduction class to the activities... Check em out..??...
Stand beside me,
Your Presence is all I need to move on,
Please your hand on my chet,
Feel the quickening pace that beats.
Look into my eyes,
Do you see the reflection of you?
I only love whom I see,
I only love the one I call my baby.
Stand in front of the mirror
See the person in it?
Please smile, though I am not around.
Because someone is in love with your smile.
Love can't be described through words or actions. The feelings comes in with the presence of the partner.
Mine comes in whether I'm with or without her presence. Somehow,
I feel that my love is strong for her.. As Distance makes the heart
grow fonder..
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Close your eyes, when you're with me
Do you feel a certain warmth, breathing at a slow pace?
Breathing down your neck,
as you lean your body against mine...
Close your eyes, when I look at you.
Do you feel my lips against, yours?
But, not even a thousand kisses
would show what I feel for you.
Close your eyes, when I'm hugging you.
Do you feel my arms holding you by your waist?
Just holding onto you tightly, making you feel secure.
Holding you, till everything's alright...
Close your eyes, when I'm holding you.
Place your ear on the heart you own.
Listen to my heart's beating pace.
Listen to the rhythmic message I'm trying to tell..
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When the moon rises,
I close my eyes.
Before illusions takes over my mind,
before my mind gets despised.
I welcome these illusions,
because they seem real.
Closing my eyes with a smile,
cause it reminds me of the love I still feel.
Love, comes in many ways,
pure happiness or tormenting pain.
The feelings could be shown;
if the sun shines, or when it rains.
The love I share with you,
can't be shown only through words,
but when we're together,
in our hearts, we can feel the presence.
2 weeks has passed,
my love for you has never died,
always looking forward to the day,
when you'll be standing by my side...
I love you, sweetheart.. I mean everything I've said and done.. So, be strong..
I love you, Vanesa Kumaara..
I'll write an impromtu one before I leave.. Just for the heck of it..
The time has come,
When I would leave the place, I call home.
Released; from hatred, from the place I call home.
Is this right?
Feeling relieved once I lift my foot,
to board a bus; to a place I've never been before
Is this right?
Leaving the family I once love,
the main reason why I want to leave in the first place.
Is this right?
Leaving THE virtual family I treasure,
the reason why I live till today.
Is this right?
Leaving the one I love, so much?
the reason why I wouldn't leave.
Is this right?
Tears rolling down my cheeks,
Remembering the good times I once had for the past nights.
Is this right?
Leaving everything I know at its current state?
Leaving the things I love, and hate at the same time?
... Is this right?
I don't have a choice.
Judgement shall not take place.
I shall leave, yet shall come back.
With a different image, a different personality
But not different enough for you not to recognize me.
I will come back, for I have made a promise.
With a loving heart, and a heart I have in my hands,
To see the smile on her face again.
I will come back, for I want to live.
To continue walking down the path of life.
To see where I will end up.
Once I step into Kem Sri Impian, I will look forward to the day I come
back. I know I will enjoy National Service, but I will miss both
places equally.
I'm seriously gonna miss you all. You guys are the best group of friends although we don't meet up.
Mood: Emo-ed
Listening To: Light & Easy - you're so vain, I bet you think this song is about you
Kannineh that Schizzow. He posted his piece before I posted mine -_-
I will never give up on us;
Not now.. and never.
I will breathe in the air;
we share.. and love.
I will dream of your presence;
And feel it.. When I close my eyes;
I will believe in the both of us;
As time passes.. To see you once again
I will never give up on us;
Because.. I want to live with your love.
I will always think of you;
Because.. You're the only one I want to see.
I will shed my tears for us;
Because.. Missing you is the hardest thing.
I will have a space in my heart;
Because.. I want you to be in it.
I will never give up on us;
Because.. I love you
I will never have my eyes on others;
Because.. I don't want to betray you
I will always pray for the both of us;
Because.. I want to be with you.
I will go anywhere, with your heart in my hands;
Because.. You said that I have it.
.. And..
I will take care of your heart;
And cherish it.. With everything I have and I am.
I love you..
Mood: Emo-ed
Listening To: Light & Easy
Every night; in this lonely bed,
the memories of you and me; appear in my head.
Some of us, don't believe in true love,
Then tell me; what's this I feel in my heart?
Though the distance seperates us,
and soon, it will seperate us even more.
But I know, my feelings won't change once I come back,
as I'm always wanting to have you in my arms.
I can't imagine some things,
Like when someone else holds your hands..
Or when someone else holds you in his arms..
Or when someone else kisses you.
Childish, as it sounds;
but I am not ready to let you go.
Despite the distance;
My love for you, is like a rough river flow.
The thoughts of me; leaving for a place;
far away from you.
The thoughts of me; leaving for a period of time;
for not being with you.
... But, for you,
... my heart will always stay true.
We can't see the future; or how things will be after June 10th.
But I can feel; that my feelings for you will stay the same. Can
you say or feel the same too?
I feel that NS is no different that my current state of
relationship. The only thing that keeps us alive are our messages
via SMSes or phone calls. Now NS will reduce that time. But
I hope that school will keep her busy from time to time for 3 months;
until I come back.
I am both sad, but happy to leave for NS soon. Happy because I
will be away from my family for 3 months. Sad because I will be
leaving her, and everyone else I've just met for 3 months.
Sad because I don't wanna lose her to anyone else; or her feelings would fade for me after 3 months of absence..
Sometimes, I believe everything's going to be ok. I truly believe
in that. But in times like these.. I lose that faith. And
sometimes, it just comes back; and fades away again. I have
promised her that I will be back to be with her again. And nobody
else. I will keep this promise. And if I'm disappointed,
there's nothing I can do about it.
I'm excited; yet scared at the same time.. I hate it when I think of all this..
Mood: Emo-ed for a minute. Lol
Listening To: Light and Easy yaw. Funk music, finally!!!
Note: Not emo, ok byez. Took like 10 minutes to write this because I
was typing email contacts also. Lol. But poetry just
facinated me when I
wrote this piece out. To actually be an "emo" state for a moment;
to find those feelings.. and
just writing them out. Sometimes, things in life can be really
interesting; and poetry is just one of them.
They seem to be the best way to speak my emotions; mind.. or whatever
it is that I'm feeling now. I don't know. Lol. Since
this morning, I had mixed feelings and all.. It is regarding her
when I leave for National Service, but it vanished because something
inside told me that everything's going to be alright. I can't
forsee or tell the future; but I trust whatever I've felt; and her
promises as she means whatever she says. From her love to her
promises. Everything. 3 months is a short duration; but
when I start to miss her, even a day can seem like a week.
I should trust her a more; and trust myself more.
Sometimes, I feel that life is imperfect; but with her, I'm blessed.
Back to work. Singapore travel agents' contacts. Lol
Come to me,
look closer and tell me
What do you notice?
Come to me,
lay beside me and speak
of what my insanity has changed me, please.
Come to me,
inform me of what I've done wrong
As the scars tell stories beyond my own words.
Come to me,
seal the wounds that I have
But do not wipe the blood; as it purge.
Come to me,
look closer and tell me
Is this who I am supposed to be?
Come to me,
as you once used to
As I've tried to change myself from me.
Mood: A little bit happier..
Listening To: FFVII: AC OST - One Winged Angel
I could've spent Valentine's with my 3rd ex 2 years ago, but I was
stuck in a prefect's camp. I was still single last year. I
never did have a perfect Valentine's..
Although wifey's eating prawns and Denise is the first one to wish me Happy Valentine's .. it doesn't matter. Lol.
Baby, I love you lots. After
the short breakup, I felt happy, sad, confused and lost.. All just hit
me at once.. But I'm glad we're back together again and I just love you
so so much..
I wrote this out a couple of weeks ago.. just for her. Will recite it later. :)
The day has come; I am here empty handed,
Feeling bad, as it's a special day. But,
the only things which are not empty are my heart and words.
For more than 6 months,
I have loved you with all of my heart,
And I'm loving you even more as each day passes.
There were emotional obstacles when we were together,
but all turned into an empty piece of land,
it's because that I've listened and trusted you.
It's hard, missing someone I love,
But with all these fixed feelings, felt in my heart,
Without a doubt, to wait for you is definitely worth it.
It's hard, for the both of us,
but I know we're true to each other,
I thank everything that you are, just for that simple fact.
I love you, with all of my heart,
and everything that I have.
I love you, for being true to me,
and everything that we've shared.
I love you, for loving me for who I am,
and every time I try to perfect things for me and you.
I love you, and I mean it,
This is why I'm spending Valentine's Day with nobody, but you.
I love you, sweetheart. More
than you could ever imagine. And I know, deep down, you love me
as much as I know; or maybe even more.
Happy Valentine's Day, sweetheart.
For all the sweet couples whom are together, may you all have a blessed Valentine's day. :)
Mood: ...?...Listening To: Myself.Grim Reaper's Scythe
Come closer;
Grim reaper's scythe.
I await your journey;
into my body.
Come closer;
Grim reaper's scythe.
Into my heart, it will plunge;
make me stronger than a cunt.
Come closer;
Grim Reaper's scythe.
Plunge into my veins;
and tear them apart.
Come closer;
my little one.
Watch me close my eyes;
Until I die.
Mood: Unstable..
Listening To: Il Divo - Regresa a Mi....
... If you think what you read is a joke, go ahead and laugh. After you do, bare in mind what's this poem truly decodes.
I wrote this up in just 5 minutes, so if you don't understand, it's ok..
Once again, I walk along these roads;
Gets blurrer and blurrer when I travel further.
The cold wind blows tonight,
withstanding it; alone.
The day I've never imagined has come;
When you, are not by my side.
Do I really feel pain?
When these tears flow down my cheeks.
I've never felt like this, for such a long time;
Never I had begged for anyone to continue to stay by my side.
But I should believe in myself,
When I said to the both of us, Everything's going to be alright.
I can't do this alone;
I sit by the blurry roads.
Waiting to feel your presence again,
Just waiting.. and waiting..
.. We should believe in whatever we say;
And I should do the same too.
I wait for the day, to find the answers,
because, every story that begins, has a way to end..
... ...
Mood: Headache-d
Listening To: Il Divo - Regres a Mi
But it turned out to be a joke instead. Lmao. I don't
know.. I had lots of shit going on in my mind and I can't even get
myself a steady topic to write about.. Comments and hate comments are
much appreciated.
The time has come; the sun has set
Friday the 13th has come into place.
The legend says; the most blood spilt
By one blade, caused by the human race.
The psychotic killer; turned into a legend
but on this day; it's a curse.
Nobody else has faced it
But only me.
The dark skies soars over the light,
Trapt within; I've turned lazy to fight.
Still believing in what's wrong and right,
Still wishing that through this body, will be the blade's final flight.
After each night; comes the dawn,
But I'm buried within a place where no sun shines.
Being left in the dark where nobody has gone before,
Because I'm the only one who's being defied.
The antartic wind blows by; sending chills down my spine,
Not even I can withstand the weather I once could.
Leaving long and slow breaths,
Slowly watching myself turn motionless.
Mood: ....???
Listening To: Children of Bodom - Touch Like An Angel of Death.
My love for you is like the moonlight in the dark skies;
Shining over you, never unprotected nor will I keep any lies.
I hope whatever I do for you would be kept in your heart;
Although I did nothing much, but showering you with love that keeps us as 1 part.
Never tired of saying those 3 simple words;
Hard to voice it out, but it's simple and nothing's impossible.
With you by my side, knowing you as my girl;
Simple by saying it, you mean more than anything to me in this world.
Treasuring every moment that we share;
Treasuring the times when I was down, and you cared.
Treasuring the times each risk we took as a dare;
Treasuring you always as you love me for who I am.
My words havecome to an end;
I hope, at all times, I am your helping hand.
Always hoping that I am the one you wish for;
Trying to perfect myself, for you love and care for.
I love you.
Okay, I haven't written in so long, so no disses, please :(
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