Glacius' posts with tag: poems
Mood: BlurListening To: Dream Theater - Under A Glass MoonSmoke rises into the air;
The rain dances; for whom they hit, did not care.
The speed devils are out again.
The innocent, once again, are in pain.
I sit, in the smoke, watching the clouds of Indonesia.
How the world has changed, what phobia.
The grass may be greener on this side,
But the tall grass that blocks my path, makes me lose sight.
The cool breeze, starts to get warmer,
Dreams are coming to an end, and yet, I ponder.
What do you speak, stars?
What do you see, stars..?
Once again, the sun rises with its pleasant shine.
Shall I judge this one? Or should I just be blind?
Another day, another light.
Another day, another life ..
Mood: Damn Tired.Listening To: In Flames - Only For The WeakThey used to do things together,
They used to chirp happily.
They used to travel together,
They used to saw sights sweetly.
Then came one day, their treasure was buried.
She was right; It could never be found again.
Drastic changes happens when you least expect it.
They were never the same again.
Until after a period of time,
When she needed help.
When she thought she could handle herself,
.. But couldn't.
He remembered the days.
He told her to not worry.
He will be around to bring her around.
He did everything to assure she is alright.
When he thought all was lost,
They started chirping together once again.
He was flooded with memories of the past..
.. Like how they chirped like chicks, again.
The treasure is buried deep. I admit that I can't get it back now, or anytime soon. But I keep whatever's memorable to me, WITH me.
It was nice meeting up with you again, anyways. It's interesting to know that we have both grown our own ways, have broader experiences, but still have somewhat..similiar interests.
I think you know who you are.
Mood: BlurListening To: Iz - Gonna Be Alright Remix (draft)
.. This pick is to be led, and is not to lead.
'Tis a sign for you;
To have faith and be strong in whatever you do.
'Tis a sign for you;
To only remind yourself that your determination pushes you further.
'Tis a sign for you;
When you're gone, I'll still be there to hear you out.
'Tis a sign for you;
I'm giving you a part of what I am.
..Only because I treat you as family.
Somewhere in my mind;
I seek freedom.
Not a lonely one,
Not a painful one.
Somewhere in my mind;
I seek dreams.
Not stale,
Not stale..
Somewhere in my mind;
I seek truth.
Not lies,
Not politics..
Somewhere in my mind;
I seek the vision to break free.
Somewhere in my mind;
I want to kill what's left of me..
Mood: Hmm.Listening To: Puddle of Mudd - BlurryListen; The silent words that lurk around this surrounding.
Does it haunt? Or does it seek you to be its host?
Are we manipulated by how we feel, or how we think?
Are we controlled by others, or our own feelings?
I wish I could find answers to these questions that haunt me.
I wish I could forget and move on.
I wish I could shed these tears when I need to.
I wish I could give my heart to someone else who’d appreciate this pain more than me.
Take it all away; I seek the truth.
Open my heart, and let it believe that all this is true.
Open my eyes, and let it see that you’re not mine anymore.
Open my thoughts, and vanquish all that belief.
Let these emotions not be torture;
Let me be free without any prevented settings.
Let me be free without feeling trapped;
Let me free..
A freak on a leash..
Mood: -Listening To: -
Take this as my prayer; as I was never good at expressing feelings.
Besides mother, you were the one who brought us up to our proper beings.
Knowing that you are strong, things shouldn’t go wrong;
May everything proceed smoothly like a soothing song.
Although you would, but forgive me for whom I have become;
Forgive me for whatever I had done, and forgive me for being an imperfect son.
One who never learnt how to appreciate the beauty of life,
One who never knew how to take the risk, and now I have to pay the price.
Though, you’ve taken me for who I am and who I’d be,
I’m thankful enough that you accept every single thing of me.
Thanks for making us happy, being the roots to support the family tree
Please don’t let this family of four turn into three.
Thanks for being supportive and caring,
I could never ask more for God’s blessing.
If you’re hearing me out, O’ Mighty Lord,
Bless my father as much as you can, and don't let Death's war be won.
I never said I loved you and missed you as much as you did.
But try and remember who always called you to come home from work when he was still a kid?
I’ll try and be strong, just for a few hours,
Although I feel insecure when your life lies in the hands of others.
The results may be good, or bad, as I’ll never know the after-effects.
I would just hope that after this stage, everything would be intact.
I’m sorry for the years of lies that I’ve told,
And I’m sorry for the times that I was too bold.
I know I’m still young, and I’ve done many mistakes,
I just wish that it’s your problems I could eradicate.
No matter what happens, you’ll never be torn apart.
Even if I died, you were the one who gave me a heart.
To love, and to care. These words are comin’ from there.
Father, how I feel for you is never a short flare.
I’d run as far as I can, even if it’s an impossible race,
And even if I broke my legs, I’d crawl just to see your expressionless face.
I love you, dad.
Let this blood flow out of this unholy flesh.
Thy existence has caused an unwanted race.
A battle with thee, to seek victory,
But ‘tis rejected, as no reason is to be seen.
Speak nothing, as thy words kill the innocent.
Speak thy words, to those who are worthy of it.
Speak nothing, as thy words harm this soul.
Speak thy words and apologies which are yet to be told.
Seen in visionaries, thou art lonely.
Thou seek for affection and attention, promisingly.
Speak out, as it benefits thee.
Show thy pure feelings, to the stone heartedly.
Dreams, shall be dreams.
Wishes, shall be wishes.
Disown me,
And I shall let this demon sleep and die.
Bah. I can't write anymore T.T
Mood: TiredListening To: Parents chattering.It has been a while since I last blogged, isn't it? Firstly, I'm far more than pissed regarding the internet connection, but no one's to be blamed because of the Taiwan Earthquake. But I think that my brother has scored the perfect flow for the current internet connection. He said something about the IP address being 219.xxx.xx.xx being a good connection as it directs you to an Australian server database. I don't know. But all I know is that I can finally load the blogs of others, and my own journal composition! Anyways, I had my first day of college today, and to find out that we have off days on Mondays! No classes! Wheeeeeeeeeee..!! But my classes start off at 9am daily, except for Fridays. Gah. I received my results from my last semester's finals. I got a GPA of 3.09.. Which is not entirely up to my expectations by looking at the grades. No distinctions or whatsoever. I managed to get a B+ for my English 1 and Marketing, a B for my Finance & Banking and IT, and a C+ for my Management. And best of all, I passed my Moral! Woooo hoooo...! I was already preparing to resit for the bloody paper again.. Wahahahahaha.. And this year, I see that Mr. Khoo Cheang Hui and Ms. Jane Tan both enrolled in KDU. Nyahahahaha.. Guess I would see them around from time to time - except that I saw Jane just this morning. She got lost. Lol. Reminds me of my first time being in KDU x).. Hmmm. Besides college, I guess you can say that I'm not feeling well. I'm having the worst flu ever. I don't know what happened, but once I got back to Penang on the 2nd of January, I was struck by this flash flu. Hmmm. And well, there's jamming again with Panic Overdrive tonight, and I need to search for the time to record a few scratch tracks for the band as we're going to pull off a drum recording session this Saturday. After that, it's off to KL on Sunday afternoon/night with Joshua and Moe for the XFresh interview that falls on Monday at 3pm till 4pm. Be sure to tune into XFresh by then! Wahahahahaha.. And this was a piece I wrote while I was in Port Dickson.. My writing skills are getting from bad to worse.. Hmmm.. Fade. Fade away.
Let these words of false hope pass.
Let the unforgettable hope be cast’d.
Cast’d away, to a mere thought.
A thought, a fantasy, a mere vision.
Unless action is taken, the foreseen shall be yielded.
But, trap’d amongst surrounding truths,
Nothing shall be attained.
Determination is the only key.
Yet, spoken objectives are easier said than done.
Let the actions speak louder than written words.
Let this vision be a one worth seeking for.
Only time shall tell; this victory, or this failure.
Only time shall tell; this dream, or this reality.
Only time shall tell; this truth, or this lie.
Only time shall tell; this reign, or this fall.
Mood: BlankListening To: BlankDiscolour all this vision I see.
Disable all these feelings I tend to yield.
Whisper in my ears, the words that I seek.
Make me see that these visions aren't a trick.
These bleeding wounds caused by no other, but me,
And this loneliness I face, after I sleep.
The never ending path that I see,
To walk, or to stay, and wait patiently?
Tears aren't the symbol that represents me,
If it did, then I've lost myself completely.
Whisper to me, what my future will be,
So I'd know, when I'm able to move freely.
I won't sit by the streets, and tear when people leave,
For them to come back, is based on individual belief.
I'll drag myself along these rocky paths,
I won't feel the cuts, as my emotions are done.
Roam freely, O' lost spirit.
It's my mistake for not caring when you weep.
Roam freely, O' lost spirit.
As my sinful body is not your velvet.
Tears aren't the symbol that represents me,
If it did, then I've lost myself completely.
Whisper to me, what my future will be,
So I'd know, when I'm able to move freely.
Metallica inspired.  . <3 Poetry.
 Hold my breath as I wish for Death. Oh please God, wake me..
- Metallica - "One"
Mood: NeutralListening To: ?
Through this small creation, I also learnt a few things about text colourings. Guess I'm not colour blind after all.
Mood: Wheee-dListening To: Powered fans at SampanWrote this before I slept this afternoon..
Chained, to a bed of thorns,
Bleeding, continuously.
Chained, in between of my love for her,
Where none is returned, wishingly.
Thoughts, that pollutes my mind,
Of the never-ending past.
Thoughts, that never cease to exist,
wishing they would evaporate into dust.
Confusion, is the ultimate pain,
Where all is dark, and there's no sunlight, again.
Confusion, is my only train,
As I’m trapped in between these clouds and rain.
Show me the light; be my saviour.
Diminish the nights;
For my heart's the traitor.
Grant me my freedom; as i urge to break free.
Death, is not the reason;
Someone, unchain me.
 | [?] Fool | Oct 28, '06 2:04 PM
for everyone |
Mood: Mood Swing?Listening To: Glacius - Personal SpaceLeave, fool.
As I do not wish to see you anymore.
The betrayal caused, along with disloyalty.
Let this wound bleed, for your eyes to see.
Leave, fool.
Do not bitch to me.
My tolerance for you has turned into ashes.
You are meddling with my mind.
Leave, fool.
As your presence is pollution to me.
Let the beast inside of you, break free.
The sight of you, burns my eyes.
Leave, fool.
Your affairs are a curse.
You don't need to come back to me.
I'll shed my skin, so I won't feel pain anymore.
.. Leave, fool.
Blah blah blah..
Mood: ?Listening To: TVIf the below has any similarities with this poem/piece, it should because that's where I got my inspiration to write from.
I rock. Not. Haven't been writing for a very long time -_-
Although the past has been written,
Nothing changes the feelings that dwells.
No tears rolling down the cheeks,
Yet, my heart is not well.
The past memories, carved into my thoughts,
Bleeds, as every step is taken.
Turning dreams into nightmares,
Only these illusions, keep me awaken.
Yet, the dark skies, does not cloud over me,
I see the sun, that shines so proudly.
With a smile, for all that is lost,
Knowing it's a blessing in disguise, hidden secretly.
She still stands by my side,
Spends some of her time with me, and I'm grateful.
No tears, yet my heart tears.
Why does this happen, when I look into the eyes of an angel?
| [Poem] ? | Oct 17, '06 7:28 AM
for everyone |
Mood: Go figure. Nothing to do with breaking hearts or whatever. Just me.
Listening To: Something you'd better buy when it's out.
Overruled, are the thoughts I suggest.
Unfairness is how things are divided.
Soared above the skies, yet nothing can be seen.
No light of hope, yet no surrounding warmth.
Only left with one path to walk on,
Affirmed, until this ends.
No other options;
No other future.
A branch snapped, yet nobody knows.
The only contrasted branch compared to the others.
Trampled, and wasted.
Only the hurricane blows it closer to the tree.
Decision - made. Where is the happiness?
A right step made, yet only clouds surround the ray of hope.
From a bright sunny sunshine, to a dark stormy weather.
Evil lurks around the atmosphere.
This mask is beginning to crack,
Yet there is no way to renew it.
The painless laceration,
... Is vague.
Mood: ?Listening To: ?Darkness; soar across the skies!
Block the light that shines in brightly.
Darkness; leave no sun shine!
Let me be entrapped in this condition lonely.
I open my eyes, and I see no paths.
Walking along on this land, with an empty soul.
Now, there are no more voices that haunt in my head.
Somehow, I can taste a rusted blade.
The stench of the future, gives me a warning.
That is, to ride on a series of dark episodes, which is coming.
Like others, wishing I could live on a prayer,
Before I do so, I need to get rid of this merged traitor.
The month of joy, has come to an end.
Let my senses be wrong, where my depression is at hand.
I sense something evil, coming closer and closer.
O come, open my eyes, dreadful October.
Mood: BlankListening To: Glacius - A Night In The SkyJust wrote one for old time's sake. This 5-minute piece kinda sucks. Lmfao. As I wait,
I see no shadows passing by,
Leaving me in this state - why?
As I wait,
I choke and cough,
Only hearing the echos from the walls, it bounces off.
As I wait,
Paying attention to the surroundings,
As standing on these two feet, starts to get tiring.
As I wait,
For a swarming light,
Embrace me with all of your might.
Mood: BlankListening To: Schizzow feat. Roosh - My ValentineDarkness that darkens the ray of light;
Drain all of my sanity, and all of my might.
Trapped in an abstration that can't be portrayed;
Trapped in composure; my emotions are at a waste.
When will the light shine in again?
Even if it's just a dim ray that clears the rain.
Let this ray of light shine on me; blind me without doubts.
So I know that I will safely deviate into another route.
I lost it to continue. Too blank.
Mood: Hungry
Listening To: Vitamin C - Graduation
Eternal Sleep
Awake me from my current condition,
From all my dream transitions.
Scarred heart; yet it doesn't bleed.
I am tearful; but I can't weep.
Awake me from my deep sleep,
Poisoned till I faint; falling in - deep.
The morning scent; brings me cancer.
Smoke and haze; blended well, makes Death better.
Awake me from my surroundings,
Let the light shine through the place I'm confounded in.
Fire or ice; they seem the same.
Burn or freeze; still, Death gains.
Awake me from my darkness,
Concealing me from this lifeless bliss.
Constricted within; save me.
Tortured within; Death, save me.
Stand beside me, and tell me what's wrong.
Why we entered a position we don't belong?
The tears we've sheded, all the love that's scattered,
The pieces of our hearts, broken, shattered and tattered.
We need to learn, how the human hearts are owned.
I need to learn, why my feelings are still proned?
To harmness, seeing you with another guy,
Having sleepless nights, always asking myself why.
And I try and have tried, but these tears still flow.
When it's you and me, unbelievably, I still mourn.
The truth has never been known, and now I stand alone.
Like a kingdom conquered, and its king, dethroned.
Banished from love, because it's my own fate,
because it's adding to my burden, unbelievable weight.
Now it's time, I got scarred, because I deserved it,
Love is blind, and it's something you can not predict.
Mood: Hungry
Listening To: Glacius - Tears in Heaven
Death, Distilled
Faint smell of Death, wanders at night,
Taking souls of the young and innocent.
Fated, was the time of their life,
Which cannot be known through prediction.
I see Death, at the end of my path,
Still separated from the unfinished road.
Standing there, with names he had carved,
Standing on where I am, ignoring what he wrote.
Countless, are the steps, I will take,
Countless, are the decisions, I will make.
Countless, is the hope, I will rake,
Countable, is my life, which he will take.
Time is his weapon, that never stops,
And it always battles against our wills.
Silently, he waits, as he gathers more souls,
Soon, I will be next, as my fear is distilled.
I smelt Death when I woke up. I still smell Death as I'm typing this out.
This proves that I need my bath, seriously. Death stinks.
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