Mood: FF7-ised
Listening To: the fan and MSN beeps..









This is going to be rather short, but here's a shoutout to my darling little daughter, Yin Ning..

Who's currently getting smogged by the mosquito fogging in Camp Syruz in Bukit Mertajam .. Another one of those NS candidates that wouldn't stand NS, but happened to adjust to the programme because she had no choice.

But besides that, she's been someone that I held kind of..close to me with her hyperactive spirit.  Both bright and sexy at the same time, I think she'll get somewhere..










So you stinky little cub of mine, kill them singing Malays in your camp and have a great 18th birthday..










Funniest thing is that her birthday surprise by her Delta Company is going to get ruined by the Alpha Company, and the Bravo Company's going to ruin both of their surprises.. What a girl.. LOL

Mood: Tired
Listening To: US Marshall..









Yep.  Listening to that movie on my brother's new mobile DVD player my cousin got for him from Hong Kong Video.. It's a token of appreciation of what my brother had done to convert nonsentical recorded video camera format of the wedding to burnt DVDs.

I lit the candles a little bit too early, because my brother came back early, but anyways, he doesn't really care when his birthday comes, so..

Happy Birthday, Jean Yves XD

Thanks for..

• Waking up late, getting into trouble, so I had extra time to watch Uglymen today when you needed time to have your bath for your own birthday lunch.
  
• Being a computer geek and picked a laptop that came with Vista, and never bothered to help me uninstall it and get XP to work in it, making me suffer from problems that should have not existed.
• .. And teaching me the basics to maintain a laptop
• .. AND setting up my torrents for me XDXDXDXDXDXD
• And accompanying me to KL when I drove there for the first time before my semester started in KDU PJ..
  
• For not kicking me out of the house when I wanged my guitar way too loud.
• For picking me up and saved RM25 with a Kembara without my parents knowing <3
• For not giving a shit about me and what I do because you're usually busy with WoW in several parts of Penang XD
  
• And for buying that mp3 player for me as my birthday present last year <3

And of course, the tradition continues..

Mood: Headache-d
Listening To: Some Wai Lai Toi programme









I'm starting to hate Plusliner .. Irreclinable seats gave me a headache .. Slept like a tikiman for 4 hours.. Buh.

Anyways, 'tis All Souls' Day.  Uh.  Yes, okay.










BUT, just 2 years ago, I met someone very.. interesting.  Someone who taught me that patience is a virtue.. At times.  Someone who's very supportive in whatever I do until today.  Someone who is different than others when it comes to mental thoughts.  And probably one of those people I know that has very strong faith in religion - and would actually learn other culture's religion instead of being all fanatic or something.

She would be none other than Vanesa Kumaara.  The sister that I never had, the invisible support, the ex-lover, the.. ex-canary banger.  She tried to ram a cat down, but unfortunately, she hit a bird.  That would take a lot of skills since canaries can be airborne.  Lol.










Happy 18th birthday, dearie :) .. Do take care of yourself.










And thanks for the birthday post!!  Lmfao  ... Xi Bo.. lmfao

Mood: XDDDD HUGNRRYYYY
Listening To: Dream theater









OKAY I WANNA GO OUT AND TAPAU SUPPER NOW.  I WAITED TILL MIDNIGHT JUST FOR THIS JOURNAL ENTRY...

MICHELLE OHMYGODYOU'RE SUET LEI, HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY










BE A GOOD GIRL AND HELLO JINJIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










all the best in whatever you do too.  now to go tapau my supper because my stupid housemate made me hungry.  GRRRR.

Mood: XD
Listening To: Some Maple Story thing









I spent my final minutes, and the last two people who wished me happy birthday were none other than Schizzow and Angelene.. And...someone else was there, but I happened to forgot who s/he was.

ANYWAYS, I spent my final moments in GSC..was on a 2-movie marathon .. The Bourne Ultimatum and Apartment 1303 .. When Apartment 1303 started, it was midnight.

So two birthday shoutouts to two special and close friends of mine:

Firstly would be Denise Peachybutt, and the other would be Eddy Ch'ng Ping Ping.  Hohoho.  Have a great one you two buddies.  XD










I suck in wishing people happy birthdays x_X

Mood: Extremely Tired
Listening To: Nothing










Yep.  She's darn right.  I wanted to leave KL at 7pm, but things went out of schedule and I ended up leaving KL at 12am.  Even before I could start driving, I already received my first few birthday wishes and also the first call for the night.

Sad to say, Schizzow, you weren't the first one who wished me x( .. It was Foo Poh Yuen like..2 nights ago.  LOL

Actually, the very first one to wish me would be Debra's housemate.  LOL

So to those who sent me an SMS exactly at 12am, before and probably few hours after that:

Caryn Foo
Moe (actually, he called in the afternoon)
SchizzowtheYungShen
Rachel Chee (saint90 on multiply)
Debra (via phone)
Kimberbooboo!
Shaun Loh
Kelvyn Yeang
Aaron teh wimmin Lim
Someone mysterious who was using a private number (both you and I know who you are la.. XD)
PingPing
NingNing
Caryn Foo.. Again
CHEANG HUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!










I haven't checked my friendster just yet as I'm really tired at the moment, but thanks in advance to those who wished me!

For those who called..Seriously, thanks.  It kept me awake throughout my 4 and a half hour journey from KL to Penang.. Bloody hell. -_- ..










Esok movie marathon :D oknites.










I know some of you posted up journals wishing me happy birthday, so I'll spend some time checking on that now X(










And here's a minor update.  Seems to me that one of our fellow Malaysians who went off to UK to further his studies has secretly started a business here in Kuala Lumpur.. Maybe I can get a present by visiting his shop in Starhill Gallery @ Bukit Bintang XD




bwahahahahahaha.. Selling jewellery somemore XD

Mood: XD
Listening To: NSYNC - This I Promise You









Well, not exactly midnight.  I was way too tired to do anything last night, but I did send him an SMS right after the clock showed 12am ...

Anyways, as I've grown older, it's great to know people who have birthdays days before and after my birthday.  My schedule would be that Schizzow comes first on the 18th, and on the 19th goes to none other than..


Probably one of those few guitarists in Penang who really sacrifices his life and soul to music, experimenting with various feels and sounds, also evolving from several genres of music to others.

All the best in whatever you do, and hope that all goes well between you and your band in terms of musical evolution as you all are nearly achieving your own sound and branding in music!










Happy birthday!!!!

Mood: XD
Listening To: Break Free









Of course, we all do hope that his toe does not get any older..or bigger..or..more disgusting than ever.

Kinda busy at the moment, but a quick shoutout to none other than 1/4 of the Toyota Vios Pimpers, Schizzooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww










*hums Love Letter mia theme*










HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!  You're nearly legal XD

Mood: Tired
Listening To: Ocean of Fire - Critical Strike









Blessed be ye, Wormy, for thou art be 21 years old this very year!

HAAAAAAPPPPPPYYYYY-th BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY-th XD










And may the sun shine upon thee to cure ye from thou sicknesses on this very day!










I haven't read that entry yet, but get well soon XD.. okies, back to studying macroeconomics T_T

Mood: XD
Listening To: WoW









Now now. Before I forget, I would like to wish a fellow friend and a musician a great Happy Birthday! Of course, right now, he is in Singapore pulling off some sort of a gig along with his band.

The band hails from Alor Setar, so you know who I'm talking about ;)

Today marks the .. ___th birthday of Ong Tai Suan, the current drummer/vocalist of the 11 year old band, Uglymen!

May God bless you with a lot of good health.. kills in drums.. Maybe you can do 1208 single strokes on the snare drum soon enough with much practice.. Wahahahaha..But don't lose your skills on the guitar!  I love the way you play!

Mood: Tired
Listening To: Dead Silence









Well, this is kind of freaky.  I got back home, and unlike the usual sight, I see nobody.  Worse still, the Camry is missing and I'm not the one driving!  I swear!

Oh well.  I left for KL this morning at 8am, and we were just in time for the bus.  When Moe and I took our seats, the bus already departed.  We were pretty lucky, I suppose.

Both of us were the only dudes dressed up semi-formally, but not having the button all the way up to the collar, and we had our ties down, and well, eyes were on us.  Of course, Moe liked the attention, but I don't know about me. XD

Arrived in KL about 12.30pm.  We were way ahead of schedule.  And there we go.  Two jackasses from Panic Overdrive trying to get from Pudu to Petaling Street.  When he re-read the SMS about the place we were supposed to go was Taman Budaya near Petaling Street, had to inform Moe that Petaling Street's not that far away from Pudu.

... But we forgot routes, so we spent some time searching for Petaling Street after our lunch.

Of course, we didn't know that we were around that area after eating at the McDonalds outlet closest to Petaling Street.  Wahahahahahahaha..

So, we met a few rude people who didn't want to entertain us with directions unless if we bought their fuck movies for RM5 or something, but we made it through, after raiding an innocent botique shop, of course.  And both of us knew jackshit about Cantonese and well, the girl was asking us..

"Jalan pin toe?"
"No no, man.. Jalan H.S. Leng.. Not Jalan Pin-Toe.."

.. Right.

Anyways, we met up with Alan from DeathStar Productions, and it's about time for me to be aware with whatever I'm doing.  The thing now is that Panic Overdrive (especially Moe) is trying to get a contract with Deathstar Productions through Alan in terms of recording and all.  So, I'm giving in my best to actually push Panic Overdrive to dream Moe has.  This whole trip made me learn a little bit more that nothing's practically impossible for music - as long as you've got connections with people.

And no, it's not the XFresh radio interview thing that I was talking about.  That wasn't today.  Today's a press release for the Penang band, Paku.  Got briefed about their success (or soon-to-be success), and their future performances in the UK and Paris.  Pretty amazing man.  They're going to be playing for EPL and some other things.  Really tired to blog at the moment.

I'm way too tired to type a little bit more, but I learnt lots of stuff through Moe about the band, his visions, and shared some problems.  Well, he was there to hear me out about the whole Vanesa issue, and I'm thankful he was willing enough to lend his ears.  He heard my point of views, and asked a couple of questions himself.  I replied all of his questions without any.. problems?










Well, I'm down to a conclusion that Vanesa has pretty much grown apart of me.  It's pretty weird?  I don't know how to explain this, but I feel a lot much more better after talking to her for like, an hour or so?  Just to catch up on old times, and learning about how she and this guy got together.

Not entirely depressed, or anything, but.. Yeah, I'm still human, y'know?










Well, I'm too tired to blog.  I'm waiting for Paul at the moment.  It has been a while since I last caught up with him, so I just gave him a call.  Of course, I wouldn't have bothered him at this time of an hour, but the Camry's gone.  -_-

Oh well.

Anyways, here's a short schedule of Panic Overdrive - clarified this time:

13th January - Church Street Cafe in Penang.  Opening perfomance for Paku, as they are releasing their single.
24th January - XFresh interview at 3pm to 4pm.  Met up with the owner of XFresh, I think?
3rd February - Live acoustic session at Taman Budaya in Kuala Lumpur.  Gotta brush up my acoustic skills @.@
3rd March - USM charity concert at Youth Park.










Hope to see you all around!  Do support Panic Overdrive!!!!




















Thanks Kellyinyee x')

Mood: Still in pain
Listening To: Dead silence









Not entirely Merry Christmas, but I would like to take this moment before I continue wrecking my Murcielago in NFS: Carbon to wish..




Take care in KL, and on the way back from KL, man! Muahahahahaha










Aight, time for my side for the blog. Today's the first day of my holidays, and it's extremely boring. I slept till 11 something, had lunch, got into an accident, came back home, washed the burnt wounds to maintain it before it becomes all bubbly (which was a process I never liked at all), then came home and slept because I couldn't even work on recordings and music due to my mum using the laptop and my bro sleeping (causing me not to cause a ruckus.). After I woke up, I rejoiced with NFS:Carbon.. Then went out for dinner and met up with a couple of ex-schoolmates.

And well, here I am now, going to continue my NFS: Carbon marathon.. Muahahahahahaha..










And the burnt marks still burns ................. I've got a Burning Desire for it to be healed completely T.T










Edit:  The journal title made me remember that I missed out one thing.  I will be in KL from the 7th of December till the 10th of December.  Leaving on the 11th afternoon.  I will be working there alongside my mum.  She asked me to help out.  Hopefully, I would have enough time to go lepak alone near Bukit Bintang area.  Wanna check out more hidden stuff around Sg. Wang and Times Square if possible.

And no, I won't be staying with Schizzow, but I will be staying in Bukit Bintang/Bukit Ceylon area in my dad's apartment.

I didn't wanna tell anyone about this trip, but who cares lah?  Lol.  Just pray that nothing suey will happen to me in KL, like what happened recently to me in Penang -__________-.

I'm going nuts.  WAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

Mood: Pissed
Listening To: Computer fan.









In Need For Speed: Carbon, I just got myself a Lamborghini Murcielago that costed my game money $ 202,000 ++. I was left with $4,000++.

The smart me, thought I found a glitch in the game, seeing that the value was higher than the original value I got from the car lot by $20,000. So I decided to sell it off.

.. Without knowing you only get half of the shown value.




















Mother Chicken White sial.










I'll race after tonight. RX-7s can't go against those damned Lotuses and Ford GTs. -____________________________________________________-

Mood: T.T
Listening To: XD









XD!!!!

I know I'm late, so everybody would know what the title would be all about.. Well.. It's November the 4th today, so it's our lovely Caryn Foo Poh Yuen's birthday!!!

Wheee!

And thanks to her birthday, I managed to sell off 3 copies to Vanesa XD.. Muahahahahahahahahaha.. 1 for this MGS girl, and the other would be to Edmund..

Post paid, eh.  You'd better watch it Edmund XD

And.. uh.. Today's Keshure Kumaara's birthday (Vanesa's brother) and well, Ejian Loh!  Wheeeee..!!!

Mood: Pissed
Listening To: Michael Jackson - Rock With You.








Before I start, fuck Multiply. It ate a long post I wrote. Thanks a lot, you maintainence bitches.

Warning: This is an extremely long journal. Splitted up into 2 sections. The following section you're going to read, is just a long and naggy entry about my fucked up night. The 2nd section would be shoutouts and my experiences during the BBQ party. Click here to go to the BBQ section.

Anyways, tonight has been the most frustrating night ever. Because of the Raya season, they decided to play some stupid programme that was recorded in Kulim. And I was assigned to record the programme. The very place I was stuck until I was 2 or 3 hours late for Schizzow's suprise party last 2 Sundays. I had to go Gat Lebuh Macallum, set up the VCR in my mum's staff's unit, just because she has TV9 (thanks a lot, Astro. Have TV8, but no TV9. Great). So paiseh. Just went there and fixed up the VCR. Before I could even go on, I realised that I was missing of another set of visual and audio cable.

So I rushed back home and got the cables. I was pissed about the whole night because of my mum, asking me to do something I never liked - her work. Errands, errands. I drove like I never drove before. I would usually keep my distance from other cars in front of me, but I ended up tailgating them.

*shrugs*

Seriously. You all would've thought I was possessed as I drove differently around traffic today. I don't know what else to say, and yes, my driving's still very amateurish, but it's very different compared to how I usually drive last time. It's like.. I'm finally having fun on the roads like what Edmund would say? Bitch.

And yes, I FINALLY know that many people doesn't really like reading how you drive, drift, powerslide, unless if the accident nearly costed you your life, and you're thankful because you're still living, so I will cut out on the details how I wrecked the new tyres.

Anyways, this stupid Iswara nearly knocked into me after he just rudely cut into my lane without any signals. Not the slow sort of turn, but the fast lane turn where you just tilt your steering extremely quick, making the car go into a 45 degree angle. I horned him until I was satisfied. Stupid dumbfuck can't even see a fatass Camry coming from the back. Should drive a Monster Truck around town next time. So he can't see the body, but the next thing he knows, his body will be smeared all over the gigantic tyres.

Next up, some stupid driver took over 2 lanes with his Lexus RX300. Not my fault. I was right behind him, and well, he was arrogant as fuck. Many of you would know that I wouldn't sound the horn, but there we go again. At least he was kind enough to actually stay his own lane. Should've highlighted him. It's more polite by doing so.

Idiotic drivers.

Anyways, I met up with Paul and Mei Lin and had dinner at Ali's. Costed me RM9.20. What the hell did I eat? O_O

Chit chatted till it started drizzling, and rushed back wrecklessly to Gat Lebuh Macallum. And well, I saw this Indian begger on the ground floor. God, was he a rude asshole. Not to be mean in any sense, but he was begging money from everybody. I had my headphones stuffed in my ears just now, so he didn't even bother to ask me. I wanted to stay and wait for the next lift without him, but since there was only 1 lift, and a 20-story hectic apartment, I became extremely impatient.

AND I was alone. Stuck with this Indian begger who had scars all over his face. This gave me a flashback, where those Indian assholes kacau'ed LooLoo while I was in the lift with her a year ago. Disturbing her through a chikopek way, and I didn't like it at all. Then again, who am I? We rushed off after that happened. Well, he asked me for 1 Ringgit in the rudest way. Unless disabled, I wouldn't even bother to donate a single cent. When I said no, he gave me a stare of manliness that made me nearly beat the shit out of the guy. Firstly, he asked me rudely, secondly, he gave me an unfriendly stare. You tell me about being polite, what about this asshole? Fucker.

As I arrived, I wanted to study Management, but the recording ended. So, being the frustrated me, I kept everything and was going to head back home at 10am. Until I picked up the phone and called my junior, Hock Hock, and realised that he was free tonight. Picked him and his sister up and drove around Penang.

From MGS, went to Wormy's house, drove past P. Tikus, Edmund's house, my Aunt's house, Island Plaza, Gurney Drive roundabout, SGGS, my house, Macalister road (Where this stupid Vios tailgated me and made my junior's OTHER sister in another car think that this Vios was my friend when it was some stupid old hag), Chulia Street, then back to IPG main campus. That's when I dropped my junior back because my mother miss called me. Giving me a sign to pick her up from the temple in Gat Lebuh Macallum.

Rushed back, and drove like a madman again to Gat Lebuh Macallum to pick her up. Where at this point, my mp3 player's left-side headphone got stuck in between of the seats, and when I pulled it out, the sponge was missing.


I got restless, picked my mum up, and then searched through the whole car for an hour after we got home. Thank God, I found the sponge. Although a small piece of the birthday present, but it would've killed me if I didn't find it. If I bought it, I wouldn't mind losing a small piece, because that was going to be my problem. But this, is a gift. Not my money, but other people's money. And I appreciate it down to its hardware core. By hook, or by crook, I must get that sponge back.

Thank God, I found it. I love the present too much. I would've emo'ed like mad if it was gone.

And here I am now, writing this journal that took me 2 hours to finish, and a simple maintenance schedule screwed it up. Now, to the OTHER part of the missing journal.









Since I didn't have enough time to REALLY write about the BBQ night at Edmund's place last night, I would like to thank Edmund for hosting the BBQ session last night. Along with all the cash sponsors - DinJack (SP?), Wormy, Tubak, Me, Kiwibird, Loti, Ian & Shin Bey and everybody else that I missed out. Although it was the oddest way to harvest for money as Edmund went from house to house to get the money, but it was nice to see such generous people! And I can't believe I chipped in as much as I can. I chipped in RM40 and had RM3 left. Then I had to withdraw what's left of my birthday money. Crap. Now I'm broke.


Also, not forgetting a major thank you to those who has attended the party, although you all were 99.5% quiet of the time, or if we didn't know one another, but trust me, the whole session would've been less livelier without your presence.

Also, it was kinda sad for those who wanted to come, but couldn't. I'm sure you all have your own personal reasons, such as Barney, Kellyinyee and Denise Peachyass. MichelleOMG's an exception though. She wasn't grounded, she didn't have assignments to do, but she was in KL -_____________-. Stay there. Seriously. =__=. You damn bad wans.

I admit that I did have a good time, and no, I was not ENTIRELY drunk. I was 80% and not a 100%. I was still sane. If I was drunk, I would've taken all the drinks offered by Loti and Edmund. From orange juices, done by wormy, Lemonade that Loti kept on holding onto, and this weird smelling chocolate milkshake that Edmund nearly forced me to drink. Crap.

I took the first sip, and it was burning eyes - till I could feel them popping out of my sockets, spinal pain, hot ears and a major headache that I didn't enjoy at all. Feels like death for a drunk feeling. Ever since I felt all this and didn't enjoy it, I decided to reject all offered drinks, except for water and gas drinks.

And Wormy got his wish. Seeing me drunk for the first time. And I think I was drunk. I don't know if I was drunk or not. I was never drunk, so I can't tell. Usually, I would be hyper, like kellyinyee would know me as. I've always been merry - except when I was stressed. But thanks to the drinks, I was even more merrier. Like what they say - the more, the merrier. Sheesh.

But I was a little bit TOO merry last night. After Wormy "Romeo-and-Juliet"-ed me with his oily hands, I found the closest human tissue paper. Which was Joyce. Best thing ever to rub oily cheeks on! Thanks Joyce!


Wormy: Romeo, oh Romeo. Where for art thou be?
Me: You talkings what..? Wei. Why your hands so oil--- Oh fuck.


But thank goodness that I didn't drive or ride, or I would've banged into something. Seriously. I couldn't get a grip of myself after I stood up. The headache was too great for me to handle.

Yeah, I would like to thank Wormy, Loti, Kiwibird, Tubarks, and Magic for making me nearly drunk. Had a great time last night, undoubtedly!

After that, people started leaving, and we ended up chatting outside of Edmund's house for a few hours, where I saw that Tubak vomitted 3 times out there. Drove MagicY2L's Tiara, and all that. Went back in and saw this Korean horror movie. Sucked dinosaur's shit. It was more to a National Geographic about how people died of a new disease.

But all if forgiven, since I laid my eyes on this cute Korean actress. So tomboy-ish wans. But so cute wans. So Utada Hikaru wans. So cute wans. Somemore hair like kellyinyee wans. So cute wans.

I miss her. :(

Dozed off due to the headache, and left at 5 something in the morning. Have to thank Paul once again for always being so dependant. Gotta find a way to repay him one day.

I was about to post here and ask MagicY2L to return me my NS belt, but it's in Edmund's house. I'll pick it up when I'm free some time around.






And since an unexpected relaxing week is going to finish, I should get back on my studies. I have been neglecting it and my assignments for a week now, since my birthday. I guess it's back to square 1 for me, where I spent less time staying online, and more time on my studies. Being online distracts me, and takes away most of my time which can be spent on studies. Great.

And still, I can't get over the fact of others taking advantages over me by being sarcastic while I'm trying to be nice. Seriously, screw you all. And it could be you, who's reading this now, but you're not the one if I'm talking to you till this very day.




Less play, more studies. I'm meeting up with my F&B/Management group tomorrow to discuss and hopefully start on the assignment since it's due on the 1st of November. Need to start before it's too late. And seriously, it's getting too late for me.

Hopefully, see you after this semester, which ends in December!

Mood: :)
Listening To: Nothing.  Until I test my new baby out!









I complain too much, and I need to learn how to shut up.  Guess that will be my next resolution or something.

Anyways, my father came back today, gave me RM200 for my birthday with a sweet card, and this from Kinokuniya:



One sweet book to kill my free time, AFTER my assignments..



Crap man.  So thick.  How to survive automobile stuff wans?



Uh..



Uh......... ?????  Sheesh.

Sweet book, dad.  I'll read up when I have the time.  So nice wans.  Somewhere in the book explains the differences between FWD and RWD in detail.  That's what I'm looking forward to read.


Then came a suprising present I never expected someone to give me.  An mp3 player.  Creative somemore @_@.  This one was presented to me by my brother and his close friends.  Kris, Khai Loon (THANKS MAN!  I KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO READ THIS JOURNAL!), Selwyn and Jason Chuah.  It's lovely.  But it could use an external charger instead the computer's USB being its primary charging source.  Also, it would be better if it was 2GB instead of 512mbs.

.. WHATEVER LA.  IT'S SWEET!

Wheeee!!!



So small and sleek x)



Uh.. 8 hours of charging ah :(.  I already uploaded all the songs.

Never expected it, but my bro and his friends made my day!

And I decided to thank my brother in the most manliness/brotherly way:

I'm 18, and I'm legal.  I've taken away your virginity.


Wheee!

Anyways, I would like to apologise the gang once again.  And again because I can't be there tonight (might emo or get pissed.  I'm a party pooper, so have fun you all!) at Edmund's place.  Parents are back, and they don't like me riding at night.  They don't even let me touch the car.  But I'm heading to Autocity later to scope around some Alfas later.  WHEN they sleep.

And I would like to take this moment to declare that my day is over.  Not an assignment day, but a day to catch up on my sleep and rest.  I feel less stressed now.  And after my day, would be Denise Peachybutt and Eddy Ch'ng Ping Ping's birthdays!  Happy birthday you two x).

Denise.  Bila nak hump hump?  Both of us legal already.



WHEEEE!

I'm not even going to state my mood or what I'm listening to.

Just a few nights ago, I was reflecting back on my 18 years of life, and the only people who treats me with respect without getting bullied would be friends of the same age. Just tonight, I took an unexpected trip, damaging Paul's Gen2's spoiler and roof. I got squirted by the goddamn Gen2 rear wiper and nearly fell off after some baboon jammed on the brakes.

Lucky it wasn't that hard, or I would've gotten a few wounds.

Legalised, and fully fledged. I'm 18 and yet, I have never achieved much. For the past 18 years of my life, it has been about fun, fun and more fun.

What happened to hard work?

Here I go again, bitching about my assignments. Who the fuck ever gives a shit about assignments? Nobody listens to a kid ranting about his own work. Learn to shut up. Everybody goes through more tougher shit than a meer Diploma course, and others have already taken it up to a higher degree levels.

Then again, it's my parent's money on the line. If I don't fulfill whatever they say, I'll be rated as the black sheep of the family since I was never favoured.

Throughout my life, I was always being bullied. No matter how long peacefulness lasts, someone tends to come up right beside me and screws everything up for me.

Today, we have people conversing cantonese about going to which street to drop me off and leaving me alone with Penang's worst people. Prostitutes. Or man ladies.

Then we have drivers, being very conservative, sending SMSes though driving different cars about me being emo.

Tell me about it. With myself stressed with my fucked up assignments, while we have fucking malays going home to celebrate Raya, knowing shit about English and group assignments depending on the whole group's performance, tell me, should I feel fucking stressed or not?

Fuck it.

Last year, when Michelle called up to wish happy birthday, I was down with Add Maths due to SPM.

This year, I'm down with assignments. Should've said that I was busy or something when edmund gave me a call, when I was busy. Then again, I should learn how to kick back and relax. Fuck that mentality. Too much fun, Jean Louis. Too much fun.

Back in Dysnomia, I had a drummer who was never serious when it came to my thoughts in music. Giving a shit about how the band was going to turn out, never works.

Now in FDM? It's a lot better, but the results are nearly the same. Being the youngest in everything really sucks nuts more than anything else.

Sometimes over the net, multiply, at home, in college or wherever I go to, I get ignored through my thoughts, words and whatever I do. Funny that I always seem to crave for attention. But when I stopped craving for it, it's the same result as me, trying to get attention. I find it very difficult to really talk to someone nowadays.

Sayin' that friends will always be there. Sayin' that I'll not be taking any advantage of any friendship status or whatsoever. Well, whatever.





Give me a break la, you guys. Pushing me out of a 3.0cc car to get the attention of night passerbys, isn't my cup of tea. When you let a couple of jackass-wannabes organise a suprise go-fuck-some-prostitutes sort of birthday bash, they really can be jackasses.

I'm sick of being bullied. Verbally, and physically. From rappers, to blood-related brother. I'm in no mood to celebrate my birthday. Fucked up assignments.

Laugh all you want, about what has happened. Might as well break my leg and send me straight to the hospital in that case.

Somehow, I know I'm going to regret posting this journal up. But where else can I spread my thoughts instead of sharing it? Nobody ever hears, anyways.







"Who ask you to have your bithday today?"
".. It's not like I wished for it also."






Happy 18th birthday, Jean Louis. Way to go, retard.

For a few months already, I was being just sane - keeping things together when I get emotionally disturbed.  But tonight's the only night I can really snap after so long.

Mood: Buh-ed
Listening To: The Keyboard









Well, besides suprising call from Calvin Tan Wei Sern who's willing to buy the album, here's a short birthday shoutout to the person who has opened a wide door to my musical experience!

None other than my guitar instructor, Kelvyn Yeang!

The person who puts his soul into his designs and music.  Also, a smart friend who knows just about everything that lives in this world!  Just consider him as the walking encylopedia.  Wahahahahahaha

Have a good one dude, and keep on rocking!

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!

Mood: I need to shit.
Listening To: FDM - Track 5.









Happy birthday dude!  Although the excitement and fun was all on the 15th of October, but today's YOUR day man!

Happy 19th birthday from both me and Vanesa!

FDM!




Sorry for the short journal.  I'm kinda busy with work now T.T.  Grrr.

Mood: Blur
Listening To: Kids screaming in MGS

 

 

 

Firstly, I'm not really in the mood as I was disturbed in the morning because this guy called the wrong number - which was mine, and asking me to head to the bank.  And not forgetting the part I don't like:

"I already have the information for the assignment.."
"Huh?  You do?  Then let me copy!"
"...... Go find it yourself LAR!"

Piece of shit.  The assignment is an individual assignment and getting that information was my hard work and time, also nearly getting kicked out of RHB Bank, of course.  Successfully, we got kicked out from Southern Bank.  Dope sial.

Anyways, a Happy Birthday to the almighty LooLooness @ Eunice Tan Jin Joo.  Have a great 19th birthday!

Belated birthday shoutouts go to Kiwi a.k.a. Qi Wen and Deborah Wong Jo Yin Say who?  I think there was someone's birthday.. But I kinda forgot his/her name.

Did I miss anybody else?  I hope not.

 

Anyways, class starts in 10 minutes.  Time to hand up my stupid draft F&B assignment.  I think it would be really weird having 4-5 references from the same website/company.  Gah.