[Vai Freak] Glacius

Mood: Satisfied.
Listening To: Backstreet Boys - Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely











Even though the world has turned into a corrupted one, where we have people who tend to challenge us in the world, forcing us to not show our true characters. How? Very simple. There are some people who has 2 faces. One would be the real one, and the other one is just fake. This would usually be practiced when it comes to topics where you can't voice out your own opinion even if it's wrong.

It's natural for someone to agree along with the bunch of people who has stated out so many points regarding the topic. And that's the only way for that person to "go with the flow"; where that person will try his or her best; to deny and hide his own facts just to stick close to the bunch of friends s/he has.

I received a couple of affirmation letters in my envelope during the Confirmation Retreat, and I'm suprised that nearly everybody asked me to stay the same (even the people I don't know wrote too.); as God has gave us our own unique personalities to lead on. Not to compare myself to others that I'm better or worse, but everybody's standards are equal. There is nobody who's better or worse than us.

I realised that I have my own mask. I guess that mask will be worn when I'm around various groups of people. But to the friends I'm close to, I take off that mask. How can you tell? Simple. If I happen to laugh a lot, share lots of jokes, come up with stupid theories and facts, sarcasm (a little. I was never good in sarcasm.) and everything else. But then again, I know myself very well. I do change myself when I'm around other people. I don't know who, nor can I remember who they are. I become a much more serious person, no jokes, quiet and all that. Maybe it's because I do not trust them? I don't know.

And sometimes, the state we all know as emo-ness would be the my ultimate attention seeker. Sometimes, I feel lonely, and I seek for attention. Gladly, I am noticed by people around me and I keep forgetting that. Now I guess why people start chanting to themselves about "Mind over matter". It works from time to time as we can't control the human emotions. They're like wild horses. If they're not tamed, they will run wild.

Therefore, I'm thankful for the mistakes and everything else that hasn't went my way. Why? Simple. They're simple blessed messages and experiences. The easier we get over/face them, the stronger we become, emotionally.


Hmm.. I guess the Confirmation Retreat had an effect on me. I have to admit that I learnt a thing or two on how to stand alone myself. And I believe that prayers would work, only if a community prays for you. Not your own prayers and your own words. A prayer is always stronger when someone else prays for you in terms of health, safety and everything else.


And no matter how many times I tend to pray, I always find myself asking for God's forgiveness for how we have ruined his creation - Earth.


I guess this is where Yin Yang comes into play. Nothing's ever perfect; when there is good, there is bad. When there is God, there is Satan. When there is the rich, there is the poor. When there is Microsoft, there is Mac/Apple. So on and so forth.

Taken from wikipedia.org:

Everything can be described as both yin and yang.

1. Yin and yang are opposites.

Everything has its opposite—although this is never absolute, only relative. No one thing is completely yin or completely yang. Each contains the seed of its opposite. For example, winter can turn into summer; "what goes up must come down".

2. Yin and yang are interdependent.

One cannot exist without the other. For example, day cannot exist without night. Light cannot exist without darkness.

3. Yin and yang can be further subdivided into yin and yang.

Any yin or yang aspect can be further subdivided into yin and yang. For example, temperature can be seen as either hot or cold. However, hot can be further divided into warm or burning; cold into cool or icy. Within each spectrum, there is a smaller spectrum; every beginning is a moment in time, and has a beginning and end, just as every hour has a beginning and end.

4. Yin and yang consume and support each other.

Yin and yang are usually held in balance—as one increases, the other decreases. However, imbalances can occur. There are four possible imbalances: Excess yin, excess yang, yin deficiency, and yang deficiency. During the switch to Daylight saving time, for example, there is more 'yin' than 'yang'. They can again be seen as a pair: by excess of yin there is a yang deficiency and vice versa. The imbalance is also a relative factor: the excess of yang "forces" yin to be more "concentrated".

5. Yin and yang can transform into one another.

At a particular stage, yin can transform into yang and vice versa. For example, night changes into day; warmth cools; life changes to death. However this transformation is relative too. Night and day coexist on Earth at the same time when shown from space.

6. Part of yin is in yang and part of yang is in yin.

The dots in each serve:

1. as a reminder that there are always traces of one in the other. For example, there is always light within the dark (e.g., the stars at night); these qualities are never completely one or the other.
2. as a reminder that absolute extreme side transforms instantly into the opposite, or that the labels yin and yang are conditioned by an observer's point of view. For example, the hardest stone is easiest to break. This can show that absolute discrimination between the two is artificial.

I guess that's why I realised how beautiful the picture I just recently edited. Not to say that it looks good, but the concept that was used. It's a reminder to me that everything happens for a reason. And also, God is in our lives. Through the people we love, and hate. I even think that accidents that I've gone through, are messages from God. Saying that there are still people in this world who still cares for me, and I'm never alone. Saying that you don't only get a chance of receiving speeding ticket from the police officers, also a chance to get a death ticket from Death himself.


I don't know who's going to read this besides the usual Multiply-ers. But to those who has attended the Immaculate Conception Confirmation Retreat 2006, I would like to say thanks for the memorable time and the affirmations you all have written. Together, we make this world; complete.




- Just stating my thoughts out. Life is beautiful.


PS.  I'm going to change my theme for Multiply.  "Skyline" gives too much problems.  There are bugs here and there -_-