[Vai Freak] Glacius

Mood: Overjoyed!
Listening To: The Darkness - Love Is Only a Feeling








Don't ask me why. I'm also rather lost myself. But I'm not depressed at all now! I mean, I've lost Vanesa as someone I loved and all. But throughout this relationship, I treated her more than a girlfriend. I treated her like she was apart of my own family! And you know what? I'm glad for who I am. Though this was a breakup that people would think I would be depressed and all, because I was with her for a year, but trust me. I'm more than okay now :).

Of course, now, we're not even friends, but we're family. True family. And the one thing being as a family, where you can't feel the feelings of jealousy or anything that might ruin the relationship! Yes. We are, once again, back to the sibling stage. Where I am her elder brother, and she would be my younger sister. This way, things can really work out really well among us!

No, there is no more love for each other, I can assure you, but we're better off being siblings, because we were once so close, yet we can't be as close as we can, as siblings. I don't know. I'm overjoyed to type anything now.. Bwahahahaha..

We talked about how I got over it, and if I was really ok or not about this whole breakup thing and all. Oh yeah, I'm fine about it. Lol. Nobody believed me, but after reading my thoughts, of course everybody believed me :). I don't know. She cares for me, and I still cares for her. So, instead of a serious "relationship" - Hubbie and Wifey, we might as well become brother and sister. That way, things would be seriously better! No more feelings of jealousy or anything. Just plain care-ness, clean support without regret and everything else!

I don't know. I'm just far more than happy right now, to be treated by her like a family.

And by the way, after we splitted:

• I didn't like using the term "break up" because she was more than who she was to me, as a friend. She is a friend, and to say that we broke up, is kinda harsh to us.
• I didn't like labelling her as "ex" because she has done nothing wrong! She has never dumped me, betrayed me, or went out with another guy while we were together. And besides, if you said someone was you ex, most of your friends would think that she dumped you, or the other way around, no? And besides, I'm too proud to call her my ex. :).. I've been nothing but happy being with her. But now, I'm even more happier being her sibling than her boyfriend!

I don't know if I'm going nuts, but believe me, I'm still sane! Just that I'm back to my normal self.. Muahahahahahaha.. I'm feeling oh-so-fucking good.