[Vai Freak] Glacius

Mood: -
Listening To: Puddle of Mudd - Blurry









It's been a long time since I last wrote my mind out on this.  Now would be the perfect time, I suppose.

I restricted myself from doing so because I thought I could handle things myself.  But every human needs love and affection; either from a person..Or whatever they wanted to do.

Unique individuals that I truly admire would be people like Edmund.  They don't need love and affection from the opposite (or the same) sex to move on.  It's their dreams, goals and surroundings that moves them.

Those are the unique ones I admire at times.  For people like me, whom I think is normal, we need the attention of the people around us.  Sometimes, a special individual that makes us feel all that butterflies in our stomach.

For me, I suppose it's over.  Being the over-devoted bastard that I am, I can't let go of her easily.  I would still want to be "Hey, I am your friend and I care for you so much still, yeah?".  Honestly, I think it's bullshit.  It's the worst move I admit, but I'm too stubborn to listen to my own words.

.. Or the advice of others in my case.

It's the high beliefs and all of these emotions I still manage to feel inside of me that restricts me to move on.  I want to.  I'm determined, but I can't do anything when cupid's arrow strikes me like a bullet being shot by an AK-47 held by Saddam Hussien's men.

It's experiences and situations like these that would make us stronger.  Although we might consider being 19 or 20 as a full grown adult, but in this game of love, I'm still a mere child.

And breaks were supposed to be a period of time where both partners require their own time alone.  But what use is that when the you, or the partner, starts going out with someone else that has already done something sweet for you before?

It's bullshit la.  If you're a Mathematician of any sort, here's a new equation.